My Dear Best Friend…

Mon ami

As I am growing up, I am coming to realise that everyone around me, the people I held dear to me and never wanted to let go out of sight, are growing up as well. We all are branching out and going our own separate ways.

I have always been a ‘quality over quantity’ kind of person, thus, I have a limited number of friends. A few friends who are scattered across the world and are usually occupied in their own lives. Some friends don’t even talk anymore, while some keep making unrealistic promises to talk and meet soon, and others…

I had an epiphany earlier this year. I now firmly believe that every person, especially me, requires to keep making new friends to share the daily sorrows and joys of life, compare notes, and do things together!

Even though I have been enlightened about the need to keep finding companions, I haven’t managed to make a single new friend yet. I still find myself endlessly rewatching the TV shows that comfort me somehow. The reasons why I haven’t been able to have any success in finding people to accompany me are:

1. I haven’t been going out of the house all that much.
2. I wasn’t engaging in a lot of hobbies
3. I keep looking for the people I love in strangers

Ab me naye dost banau bhi to kese, har insan me tujhe hi jo dhoondhti rehti hu.

I want the ‘same friends I have’ to magically appear in the form of a stranger and just exist with me. I can’t go on looking for you in every person I meet. I know that it’s time to accept the fact that we are all grown ups now with responsibilities to fulfil, careers to build, and a life to live. But I don’t want to let you go.

I don’t want to live my life without you. But I don’t have a choice. I will find other companions to share my life’s joys and sorrows with, but no one can fill the void of your absence.