2024: The Year of Letting Go!

Letting go used to be a foreign concept for me, until I realised—the baggage I was carrying became too heavy and started breaking me bit by bit.

If you are someone who doesn’t get bothered by things, people, or life in general, then you must be a pro at letting go. You may not gain anything from reading this blog, but you may be able to help others by commenting any insights you might have about the art of letting go.

However, if you are someone like me (who is afraid of letting things go and hasn’t deleted a single contact info ever), I invite you to explore this journey of letting go with me.

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The year started with the usual amount of hopes and dreams for a better future, but I felt too heavy to carry on with the usual gusto.

The mountain of defeat and despair from last year didn’t get a chance to be seen before I got hit by reality.

First things first

First thing that got me in January 2024 was the hurt that comes along with holding some too close to your heart and wishing they would do the same for you.

No matter how much you want someone to stay close to you, it isn’t enough to keep them nearby. The other person has to actively choose to stick by your side too.

If you find yourself wanting more than you are getting, it is time to evaluate how much of your needs and wants are being fulfilled in a relationship. This will help you see what is lacking in their offerings. And. Whether you can settle for how little they are offering or not.

This will also offer you a great opportunity to reflect on how much love you spread around.

And eventually, you’ll be forced to let go.

Surprises are not always pleasant

Started with a mild unease, the voice at the back of my mind steadily grew louder and stronger. After a couple of months, reality finally revealed its sharp corners and crooked edges. I came to a sudden realisation that someone dear to me was drifting away from me for months and life kept me too occupied to realise how far they had ventured.

I would be forced to realise later that all the tugging and reaching out I did will not get me any closer. For the 2 steps I’d manage to get closer, they will venture 2 steps further away from me.

And eventually, I was forced to let go.

Unexpected wrecking ball

We lost my grandmother this September. She and I were never close. I even used to hate her at some point in my childhood for how bitter (in general) and unaccepting (of me—a girl) she was.

I never thought her departure would devastate me as much as it did.

Death can do surreal things for you. I felt her presence a few days after her departure, and it filled me with surprise and nostalgia.

It was difficult saying goodbye to her. I often found myself crying during the days reaching up to her last rituals.

And eventually, I will be able to let her death go.

Coming to an end

It’s December. I don’t remember much of my burden anymore. But I was able to accept a large part of it and….eventually let go.

If you care even a little about your person/thing/event, you will fight.

Fight for as hard and long as you can. You may be able to avoid the loss.

But.

If.

There’s nothing much you can do. I need you to let go. Cry, fall, stay, be devastated if you need to. But, eventually, let it go.

A request

I have likely made several dear ones sad during this year due to my sharp edges or intentional/unintentional deeds.

I hope you can eventually let it go.

Get the book—THIS IS ME LETTING YOU GO by Heidi Priebe—that helped me during my process of letting go.